seems that i have a glue like attraction to difficult relationships. i realized that i actually attract this kind of relationships actually. it is not something rational, my therapist told me it might be connected to not having enough selfesteem. but i have been in a few abusive relationship that really ended ugly. on the last guy i have a court order not to come close to my house, that's how bad it was.
anyway, i am working on these issues right now. realized that whatever i would do, i keep repeating some patterns. and that's not funny. right now i am getting online counseling. don't laugh, it actually works. put me back on track, deal with my feelings of unworthiness. It was actually very cool and i got a lot of insight right from the first session.
anyway, i wish you all strength to stop repetitive bad relationships..you know what i mean....
god bless
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